Take a Breather

all i could say now is it was as though i was dreaming in reality. i thought i was ready for it to accept it with open arms with full of relief but then it is not. it didnt work that way. instead, i was left alone dreaming about it. it was as though it was just yesterday that we put our arms on each other, having the time of our lives.

but now its like this. damn. it was hard for me to wake up to reality this morning. i couldnt get the hang of being alone again. it felt that i was really missing something. this whole thing was something that i wanted when i was on the blow but it is not what i want when i am sober. it was so close yet so far. grrrr.

but all i could do is just to change for my future. i cant a thing about my past. it has happened. there's nothing that i can do about it. all in all, thank god that it happened. praise him for this.

it takes time to heal but then we'll see about it. its really hard to consume but thanks for parents and friends who are here for me. things will not be the same again. i will not be the same again. i will change for the better.

my world for the week? be a better person. be the better daughter. be the better friend.

thanks for the lesson. :)

In a Room!

my birthday celebration with a friend has been taken to a new level. no cakes. just spending time eating together and yacking away is the whole new level this time. 

and 40 mins in the fitting room doing all sorts of poses until this one promoter came knocking on our door. ooopsies.

this is one memorable day for me. and thanks to those who wished me on facebook/text. heee appreciate it! thanks for being there for me, my family. thanks for being able to accept who i am today, for better or for my worst condition. appreciate it too!

sorry for being lost in action here. the mood to write has lost due to moodless days. oops. this time is one lazy semester break. ugh.

Drown in the Yellow Sea.

my semester break has started and i've been rotting at home for a week now. it sucks but yeah. 

but today i am a part of the malaysian history! attending the bersih 3.0 in melaka was great. we shouted our lungs out for clean election. hidup hidup. hidup bersih. bersih bersih. we sang negaraku! never before it felt so meaningful to me. 

we gathered at dataran pahlawan. the heat was way over the limit! damn hot but we're power. :D

it was just around 1 plus when people started to gather around the field to demand for bersih. the crowd was humongous! we were there waiting to sit on the field at around 1.30 from the above picture. we count down some more. "ada 4 minit lagi!"

and while waiting, the crowd grew bigger and stronger. suddenly, i felt so proud as a malaysian to be a part of this. *happyheart!*

during and after the event, we were under the scorching hot sun. little did i know, i got sun burn even though i applied sunscreen prior to this bersih! grrr but its ok. one has to sacrifice something for our own future and future generations.

i make malaysia proud and im a proud malaysian.

ps. suffering in sunburn aint a happy thing. it hurts. D:

Off the Whiteboard

sometimes class can be more fun that you'd expect. 

8 more months to enjoy. 

Marketing Put in Full Use

there are 2 posts today. scroll down to the next. :) 

it was a dreadful morning for both me and tauhida. ugh. after all this time, i had no morning class except on fridays but now. but its ok. we had good time squeezing in the tiny car. 6 people with one lecturer.

these were the 4 of us including me. all we did were just giving out flyers, asking them to fill survey forms as feedback and for the management use.

and this pretty woman right here just take our pictures because she cant speak the language they usually speak. really observer only while me and the 3 of us just did marketing.

at first it was freaky la. there are some people who are like gangsters.

but the funny thing is, these gangsters-wanna-be wears slippers like

dinosaurs feet! hey billy baby, if u wanna use this type of slippers, i will not know you! :P

 after a long 2 hours of marketing, we end up with laughter and head to jusco together. the 6 of us. kenny roger's.

good work paid off. :)

Of Rings, Sands And Vows.

ahhh after such a long hiatus. was caught up with a book i just bought with the 1malaysia voucher. thats why. the story gets more interesting after every turn!

ok so what happened to me. im still alright. had a few events that took place with my existence.  thats a pretty little bouquet of flowers, isnt it? it was for my parents. each couple has one. it was a day that they rededicate their marriage to God because their first wedding was not done in a christian way.

10 couples said their vows in the presence of their children and grandchildren, sisters and brothers, parents. it was nice to see my parents hold a second wedding together again.

they exchanged rings together. my mom pretty hor??

not only that, they had the pouring of sand too. busy night indeed for them. they didn't really have the time to eat. some session they had to go to the front and complete what they have to do.

it was a memorable night for us. everyone was pretty and handsome. and it was the first time after so many years, my dad worn a coat! he's never the coat guy. never.

Of the Sunset

it was a saturday night fever. first off by the jetty for the sunset scenery. super malaysian max - time was supposed to be at 530 but 7pm they arrive at my place. tsk tsk tsk. 

so off we went. to the jetty at the portoguese settlement, a place where i always have to beg my billy to bring me go but only once! ish.

there are too much of pretty and ugly pictures for me to upload here. so i just pick among the best ones. 

we hang around there till 8-ish then the one million bucks question popped.

 

"eat where ah???"

so we had our makan at the asam pedas over at kota laksamana. there, we updated each other with stacks of stories! one after another. but it was fun though.

after dinner, the monstrous tummy of choon mei wanted to eat ice cream. so we headed to mcd.

 

it was a good night for us.

The Musicals.

it was again the music concert. every year once and lucky them this time, their music classes are also done. grrr i smell of jealousy now.

being the emcee for this event, i can say, i messed it up at first with my mic! x.x then from there, i was lost.

 

in case if you're wondering, this lady tauhida is from dubai! and she always makes me feel like i need to go dubai! aiyooo. she's my partner for the event and i was lucky that tauhida was with me! we didnt really practice the day before. we were so relaxed. taking everything easy and well-baby,-everything's-gonna-be-just-fine. but we helped each other on stage. ;)

so far, we did well! we received compliments from manyyyy.  

 

the performances were great. i love them.

 

they were all creative in their own ways. and fun too! the far right is actually a guy and they taught him how to walk on heels! wahhhh. crazy! hahaha.

ah well, gotta hit the sack. night!

In the Moonlight

just had a great dinner with them.

we did plenty of update and catch up. even though im tired, recovering from my sickness, i listened to their stories. they have created moments of laughter and joy. sad and eye-opener.

(my sickness is one sad story of my life. it was the worst ever that i have to go to the emergency ward at midnight. :'( )

after having dinner at amigo's, we went to the portuguese settlement! we walked by the jetty and enjoyed the sea breeze! are we going again for the sunset this time??

we just walked together along the jetty while my stomach was a little upset. ugh. irritating. but throughout the whole night with ma ladies, i enjoyed a lot because most of the time, im always home doing assignments, turning into a nerd.

Gong Xi Gong Xi!

chinese new year's been GREAT! my ang pow collection increased this year. *screams for joy!!* only had one yee sang this time though. nahhh not really a fan. just tossing it up and wishing for extra blessings etc.

every year sure to have. among cousins. ah the joy of having reunion dinner together. catch ups and updates. and realizing that you're a year older this year!! big shock! i still cant grasp the thought that i am going to be 21! time really flies.

found this over at my aunt's place during our visit there. reminiscence of time. I WAS SO CUTE! but the thing is, i dont even remember when was this. when was this picture taken.

did not do much activity besides visiting my relatives and them visiting mine. i slept more on the first day of new year. so bored. *yawns* i think its the age that is catching up. cny aint a big hu-ha for me already. its like rilek-brooooo.

went visiting with these people.

 

this is my first time seeing people so hardcore for gambling to earn their assets back. scary but funny to see them loose and win, loose and win. counting counting. but i had fun. tiring at the end of the day but it was worth it.

how's your cny?